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Hey, hi, this is Nova Storm! You found me but you also really super didn't, haha! Do the thing so I can do the other thing back, okay?

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"The... the first time?" Nova Storm asks into Skywarp's abdomen, feeling that lurch in her chest as always when she thinks about it, or maybe it's because the bond... it's open on both sides, she can tell, she always can at close range, so why... "When he-"

She shakes her head into Skywarp. "No. A- a few things lingered a tiny bit, but I don't. Nothing. Nothing before him standing over me and you came and got me. It's just... nothing."

That twisty feeling twisted further. "Or do you mean when it brought me back and everything went as wrong as it can? Yeah," she rasped, desperately reaching through their bond for Skywarp but it felt empty, a vast empty nothing, and she shuddered again, tightening her grip.

"Warp..." She whispered into her, not looking up to her face, "you- the bond... It still feels- it feels like you aren't here. I thought you were dead when you were gone, and-" Her vents were speeding up again, mouth trembling as words spilled out, "and now you're back but I can't feel you, I can't-"

[telepro]

"No, not those times."

She frowns above Nova... but this gives an opportunity for her.

"You disappeared again a month or so ago for a few days." How could she know that without being on the ship? This is not the first time she tried to come running back to Nova, and there's a reason she ran further after it. "It's probably just the bridge doing some weird scrap. It'll just feel muted until everything goes back to normal."

Skywarp makes a face, painted lips turning down. Perhaps she's still being a bit cold, but Nova doesn't need to know that just not being there isn't how it feels when she died. It felt like she had never been.

"I'm not dead and I didn't die, so you can stop worrying about all that, okay?"

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Nova Storm cycled her optics uncertainly, rapidly thinking, scrambling, through any gaps or flaws in her memory and how that meant Warp had to have been on the ship or in communication with someone. Did she come back, and thought herself that Nova was...

She opened her mouth to say something, but in truth she was still far too slagging relieved that Warp was here to want to tear apart what she was being told when there was no evidence of it being incorrect. It would just feel weird for a little while.

It would be okay soon.

Nova nodded. "Okay. Okay," she said, nodding more emphatically. "And- and I'm sorry I didn't- that I drove you off being stubborn. I don't want to do that again. Not to you, and not to us. So- so I've been trying. I have. So you don't have to worry either, okay?"

[telepro]

"It's not just you," she says, regret not clear in her voice. "It's okay, Nova, I know you've been trying, even before I left. I shouldn't have done that to you."

It's her job to protect her sister, but she doesn't say that aloud. It is the simple truth she's lived by for a very long time, but knows only reaffirming it would make Nova pull back further into herself.

"I won't do it again, okay? Not by choice."

[binary_runaway]

Nova shuddered out an unsteady vent and nodded into Skywarp's middle, half choking on the smallest keening, hiccuping noises caught in her throat. She'd have protested, denied that Warp had done anything wrong at all, but she was far too overwhelmed with relief and pain that were tangled together into a mass in their split spark.

It would feel better. It would be better. Her sister was here, her me was here, and it would be better.

Warp knew she was trying. She was sorry. She was here.

Her me was here.

"N-not by choice," she rasped back, loosening her tight grip.

[telepro]

And through all that, Nova Storm does not have to deal with how Skywarp is feeling looping back on her spark, as there is almost no feeling at all. As it should be, she thinks, after having experienced feeling Nova Storm dying with nothing holding any of the the feelings back. Nova Storm should never have to experience that with her. It's Skywarp's job to protect her from that sort of thing, and she's tired of failing it.

Not like what happened to you, she almost says when she's thinking of it, but doesn't. "I can only control so much."

She was busy when she was away though, she wasn't just running. She's finally managed to fully crack into the programming of all the arachnamechs she has, and she can use them, Nova can use them, to protect each other. If she goes, at least they will remain.